Episode 1 | Internalized Ableism

In the inaugural episode of the Crutches And Spice Podcast, Imani talks about Internalized ableism and ways to combat it.

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  1. Thank you so much Imani, this is a really wonderful piece. As a kid who grew up wearing a brace on my leg that image of Forest Gump running and his braces fell off had such impact on my view of myself. I only heard the term ‘internalized ablism’ earlier this year and it stopped me right where I was and I immediately started googling. One of the first articles I came across was your “7 Lying Thoughts That Prove Internalized Ableism is Real” and I’ve been a fan ever since. So it’s really cool your podcast started here. Looking forward to hearing more!

  2. Hey there sibling,
    sky here,
    Wadó (thank you)
    Very delighted to hear your confirming words, encouragement and clarifications.

    For me on a personal level, I’ve always had to ask where do I pass, the first oppression that was introduced to me was through racism. The internal racism recording or message I got “that there’s nothing wrong with you, sticks and stones will break bones but words will never hurt you, exemplifications that were offered as a thing I must tolerate and have lower expectations people doing the right thing.
    In other words, I was to settle and take things as a grain of salt. I don’t think self-empowerment comes easily for anyone.
    That spilled over as a thing of “just deal with it” it’s not that bad. Later in life starting around age 24, I was hearing things suggesting I’m hypochondriac, manic depressive, or somehow its my fault to just get over it and push on.
    Well into my 40s I would hear things like we can’t confirm that because that was in your childhood. I could not get people to understand that the childhood abuse was beginning to show its long-term effects physically mentally emotionally spiritually and the isolation was a huge factor. Yes I got help in school when it came to reading and writing but I never got over dyslexia, I never got over the seizures that had been mistaken for years. I never got past the limitations that come over my body. I never got past the fatigue and the exhaustion. I have lived with it but I have no idea how successful I might be, except today my success is I’m alive. I have remained against all the odds. I have survived and endure all the wrongs and it’s been solely up to me to make it right. I am new to the disabled community but I’m not new to disabilities. I think your words will break the silence for a lot of folks and that in itself is appreciative.
    thank you.

    My hidden disability as a survivor of shaking baby syndrome (TBI), fetal alcohol (spectrum) dyslexia
    Seizure disorder
    Late deafness.
    Kept my abuser safe and no one and I mean no one should live with that type of silence.

  3. I never heard the term ‘internalized ablism’ before. But as I read on, you’ve captured so succinctly this constant struggle that I fight with every day. A lot of times I’ve just given up and often won’t leave the house because I just don’t function properly anymore. I have to think on this. I find wisdom for me in this piece.

  4. Hi Imani,
    I can really relate to the podcast and thank you for it.
    As a black woman and disabled myself I find it difficult to talk about ablism within my ethiopian community. It makes me feel isolated and silenced that I can’t point out the oppression. It’s like I will ‘betray’ my community if I’ll dare to speak at them other than victims of racism. I would like to hear your opinion

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